Bradley classes, dev psyc, and my sweet Colden

Life is not always a picnic. I have been trying to remember the funny moments of parenthood that come from time to time. Today, as we were driving to Temple for our Bradley (natural childbirth) class, my sweet Colden saw Target. He spotted it out his window, and gasped. He looked at me and said "Found it!" I said, "Yeah, there is Target." He responded with a huge smile and said "Target" in a very sweet voice, showing his obvious affection to the store, just like his mother. Then he said "Oh well, bye bye Target" probably because we were just driving down the highway, not going to Target at all. I am going over the "Play Years" in developmental psyc right now, and it is fascinating. I love learning about my own son! (and preparing for my next one!) Today the book quoted someone, who was talking about babies and aggression. Now, babies are very aggressive, but it is supposed to calm down considerably around 2-4. A guy was quoted saying that babies would kill each other given knives or guns. It made me think back to the nursery this Sunday when one of the one year olds was mouth open about to go in for the bite on my own child just this past week. They are so aggressive, it's weird. I am glad (most) of them grow out of it!

Cliff extended. He now gets out of the Army Nov '12. He will deploy early Julyish, and be gone for 12 months. Bleh. Oh well. Guess I better start filling up my calendar for trips and events to keep me busy. Too bad Krysta will be deployed, too. She is my road trip com-padre.

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once again, feeling left out. is it me? or what is it?

the man out of the house

Cliff went on a retreat this weekend. I am so glad he got to go. It is an all too familiar feeling around here though. I do not want to do this (impending deployment) again. Bleh. We are praying for God's guidence.

This was my verse today Proverbs 1:33 but whoever listens to me will live in safety

and be at ease, without fear of harm.

I know that God will provide knowledge of which decision to make. His timing is perfect. If it is the will of God for Cliff to deploy for 12 months again, then we can all handle it. I have been asking for God to "take this cup from me!" but at the same time, I know I am called to be an Army spouse, and this is where I am. If we are in the army, then deployments will come and go, that's how it works. I get frustrated at the people whose husband's don't deploy, but my husband got to be home for longer than a lot I know.

I will raise these boys into warriors themselves, watch. I will be dealing with deployments for the rest of my life :(

I love CBJ, CBJ, and TDJ. My three precious boys!

getting the house ready

i don't know if i can say this enough. i love planning and getting the house ready for a new baby. especially mine. :)

a bit disconnected

feeling a bit disconnected from everyone. i guess this is mostly my fault. i think i have been secretly trying to isolate myself, which makes no sense. being in these classes, and not really having much energy for anything else besides that, Colden, Cliff, exercise, and keeping up the house is kinda getting to me. i am glad to not be on facebook anymore, but i feel like maybe i am falling from people's memories as well. i need to quit this because i am going to be here alone for at least 6 months, and i am going to need the friendships.

had to share my thoughts.

a little bit of time

i needed a little time off from the grind. i did a weeks worth of school work, and am feeling a little better about it. i think juggling between is the hard part (i hear that's the hard part about having kids, too). glad that the weekend starts now.

I have so serious nesting feelings coming out. I really want to get organized and clean, but I don't know where to start. I don't have time to do the whole house, so I am feeling a bit crazy. Not that it all has to be done at once, but I would like it to all be done. The office will be last because once I finish this 8 weeks of school, this will become my nursery again. I have NO CLUE where I am going to put my computer, and desk. I probably should start sorting that out. I guess for a while I won't need on the comp much because I will be taking some time off school, etc.

Just checking in.

Our week

This week has been much easier than last week. I am not done with potty training, but have regained some composure on the whole issue. Praying that I can relinquish control because it has become to much for me. Colden can feel it to, and he is still doing fantastic.

School starts Monday, and that is a big scary. Just thinking that I won't have the free time I have had the last couple of weeks to play with Colden, clean the house, exercise, or anything else. It will be a daily grind, thats for sure. I think I have decided to do some of it in the evenings, though, which will help.

I have also decided not to take part in the weekday ladies bible studies at Grace, but just the PWOC one on post. This frees up my Thursday mornings to not be in a hurry, and in case I need to go to Cleburne for appointments.

Looking forward to holding my baby in about 18 weeks. The name is going to be Turner Dean Jobe. I know he will be a cutie, just like his big bro!!!

This picture sums up what I feel about my csection. I am NOT having another one. End of story.

potty meltdown

well today i really had a potty training meltdown. it has been a tough week, and today is day 7. this morning he did good going #2 in the potty, and so i decided we would go visit someone. well we were going up to the church. before we even left, colden peed in his undies and pants. so i had to change him. then we went to the church and pottied, played for a bit, and then we were about to leave and we went potty again and i realized he had peed all in his clothes. then we got home, and as soon as we walked in and daddy asked what happened, he started peeing again. that is 3 times. so i decided the undies needed to go for a while and we needed to regroup. i was talking with him in my lap when he started peeing on me. he hadn't had a whole lot to drink or anything and these were all within 1 hour and 30 min or so. it was really wild. well then i didn't want to let him out of my sight, so i made him follow me around and he started whining and crying. well i lost it. i started whining and crying and just really having a total melt down on the floor in the living room. luckily cliff was in the office working, and he came down to help me recover. colden kept bringing me toys and blankets asking me if i was ok. so cliff and i played with him on the floor for a while, and then all of a sudden he stood up with that look in his eyes and went to his potty and pooped. yeah, so, it shocked me after our morning, and he had already pooped in the potty this morning. i was proud of him, and it made me feel better about everything. now cliff is going to get us freebirds while i wait at home!

surviving our first outings.

Today, right after another #2 in the potty, I decided Colden and I needed to get out of the house for a min, and employ the new undies! Lined his car seat with a trash bag and a towel, and off we went, extra clothes in hand. We went to the UPS store to send Deda a package. I reminded him at least 25 times that he was wearing undies, and to be really careful. He did fantastic, and actually peed a lot when we got home and went potty. He was glad to use it! Then we went back out to the park and played and sang for a while, and he used the potty when we came home. After his nap I decided to REALLY take him out. We stopped to meet a lady who was selling us a bather for the new baby, then went to Target. As soon as we got inside Target, I decided I had to use the potty, and that it would be a really good training to have him use the potty while we were out. It went so well! He peed and washed his hands and everything. I was so thrilled. We didn't doddle in Target, but got what we needed and went home. The whole outing only took and hour, but it felt like such an accomplishment! Tomorrow, who knows what we will try. Dinner out with Daddy?? :)

getting it

i really think Colden has caught on quickly. it has been 5 days total of potty training, and he pooped on the potty twice today. he also finished his second poop under the table on his foot, but i blame us because we were not watching him. he is doing so well. i can tell he is frustrated and wants to forget the whole thing, but hey, so do i. i know if we stick to it, we can get past this and move on with our lives!

next up- swim lessons by momma!

happiest mommy

today we had a poopoo on the potty. it didn't even start somewhere else. it started on the potty. this is one proud and happy momma!!!

yesterday i went swimming at the gym and it was wonderful. i am going back today. it was so fantastic. i forget how good it feels to be in the pool pregnant. and i slept like a baby afterward.

i love my little poopin machine. i am praying that now that he knows how to do it, he will do it again. i know there will be accidents here and there, but not going back to diapers. and we don't use pull ups, so, undies it is. :) that is, when we finally leave the house again.

Still no #2.....

Trying to be as patient as possible with Colden and him going #2 on the potty. He went in his diaper during his nap today. :( As soon as I went in there, he got all weepy and said "Dump it!" He knew it belonged in the potty, but I guess didn't get the 'memo' fast enough. His diaper was dry still after nap though. After both nights of potty training days there has been almost so little pee in the diaper that I thought about reusing them. We have used 3 diapers in 3 days, and that feels great! I am so proud of him. He is being such a good sport! Still not leaving the house 'til Thursday, so we can get the pee pee down a bit. I hope we can get to #2 by then.

Christmas decorations are all put up. House looks clean and open. I guess it's not too bad. Cousin Taylor is here until Tuesday. We have been sitting around watching movies and going potty!